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Saturday, February 19, 2011

Color Blind

Admittedly, when my focus is upon the Lord, unobstructed by the crisis of loss, the greyness of despair is broken by the prism of hope. Albeit of momentary duration, I have even gained a glimpse, an explosion, if you will, of radiant brilliance, with an eternal promise - bringing forth a full kaleidoscope of  resplendence without earthly origin. Nonetheless, for this time at least, the overlay of pain predominates - and like a bleach errantly applied to a colorful garment - achromatizes, and dims.


Anonymous said...

You have a beautiful way of expressing your pain. I m sure you are helping many to give voice to this excruciating pain.I love you.MYRA

Anonymous said...

Concentrating on the magnificent eternal while walking through the excruciating temporal is so very difficult. I just read Colossians 3:1-4 this morning and it tells me that I must concentrate on Jesus and His death and resurrection if I am to make any sense of this temporary world. Daily I see that appropriating the Word of God as the true reality of my existence gives my existence real meaning and purpose; that is, everything I think, say and do must be to witness to others that truly "God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in Him shall not perish but have everlasting life." I cannot live this in my own power but I must, on a moment by moment basis, surrender my heart to Christ so that He can do the work through me. When I've surrendered then I have joy. When I take my heart fron Jesus the Devil quickly convinces me to have a pity party and my joy is lost. The reality is that God is good, kind, generous and loving no matter how I feel. Pray that I live in that reality every moment.


Mary said...

So what happens when the immediate gratification outweighs the long term. What happens when someday really needs to be today, tonight, right now. when things that should comfort don't work. What happens when everything you know will happen in time isn't fast enough. When you wish that you just had one minute one second one moment to have things go back to normal back to how they were when pain didn't engulf within a moments second. when just a thought didn't turn your mind into a ferris wheel of questions of why this why
that. What happens when I just need you to talk to to see but i knw that won't happen right now tonight or today but one day.

Anonymous said...


I hear the honest cry of your heart in your words. Words, though beautiful, that describe paths of dark confusion and questions that have no answers to satisfy. Your words echo the profound mourning of mothers, fathers, brothers and sisters through the ages who have experienced, what should never be. Job put it this way:

“For the thing I greatly feared has come upon me, and what I dreaded has happened to me. I am not at ease, nor am I quiet; I have no rest, for trouble comes.” Job 3:25, 26

Mary, when I read your words, it made me think of another one of God’s children who was open before God and men as he was gripped with anguish in his own soul. I don’t know what was going on in David’s life at this time, but his question is basically the same as yours – “How long, O LORD?” Here’s Psalm 13. See if you see the connection between your heart and David’s:

To the Chief Musician. A Psalm of David.
1 How long, O Lord? Will You forget me forever?
How long will You hide Your face from me?
2 How long shall I take counsel in my soul,
Having sorrow in my heart daily?
How long will my enemy be exalted over me?
3 Consider and hear me, O Lord my God;
Enlighten my eyes,
Lest I sleep the sleep of death;
4 Lest my enemy say,
“I have prevailed against him”;
Lest those who trouble me rejoice when I am moved.
5 But I have trusted in Your mercy;
My heart shall rejoice in Your salvation.
6 I will sing to the Lord,
Because He has dealt bountifully with me.

What is especially encouraging is that you and David close with the same message of hope and promise. The psalmist says, “My heart shall rejoice in Your salvation. I will sing to the LORD.” For the moment, David will struggle with “sorrow in his heart daily.” But he knows that “one day” (as you wrote) he shall rejoice and will sing.


pastor Bob