What if the Pause Button Won't Work!

The thing of it is you do not usually get a warning message - like in your car when the brakes are getting worn or the fluid levels are low - it just happens!  Like a tsunami the pain rushes in - other times a steady but certain downpour.  Obscuring vision, emotions drowned in sorrow, there seems no respite.  You want out, but you cannot figure out how you got in.You want to stay because leaving seems all the more painful -- to go about the norm when there is none. Worship makes sense - nothing else does - bringing me to where I need to be.